Life Lately :p

Well right this moment, i have a lot of things going through my head. The most prominent thing, however, is how infuriating people can be.. As a lot of people know, my aunt is in the hospital right now, in a diabetic coma. yesterday, they rushed my uncle up because things took a turn for the worst. Now, Aunt Amy and i used to get along really well, but my mom and her had a fight a couple of months back, she drug me into it, so we havent really been in the best of terms. This doesnt mean i love her any less, but i'm not going to sit here and act like we were super close noe that her life is on the line, because we weren't. I do regret that, but that is just how things are. I'm not going to sit here and act like we were the best of friends, when in reality, we really didn't get along at all. That is what my other aunt is doing. Everyone in my family knew that my aunt Amy could not stand mt aunt Sis. Yet, of course, now that Aunt Amy can't really say anythign about it, who do you think is sucking up all the attention now? Yep, Aunt Sis. That just irritates me. Why do you have to be so fake?? grrrrrrrr. okay, i'm done with that one now lol

In other news... haha ive been thinking a lot about my weight. It affects not only certain things i do in daily life, but also how i view myself, and unfortunately, (not that i care) how other people view me. I know that if i could just get a handle on it now, get in shape, i would be so much more organized, disciplined, and all other kinds of good stuff. but when it gets right down to the moment, i cave, and i eat that last piece of chocolate cake, or i buy those french fries at McDonald's, because i just "Have" to have them.. well i'm getting to the point where i'm just sick of it anymore. i don't want to live my life worrying about this forever. I know i have other things i could use all this energy on, rather than thinking about my weight problem all the time. Well, it's summertime, and i think its the perfect time to do it. but i tend to have problems keeping up with things, so that is going to be the struggle for me, i know that. But i'm determined. So determined, i'm putting it out here on the World Wide Web for all to see! :) so wish me luck!!! :)